Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
I am starting to get the Christmas bug, I can't wait to wrap gifts for others, and I can't wait to sing Christmas songs, and have Christmas parties, and getting together with family! I love the feel of this season, it's awesome!! Well, I need to go and take care of stuff, because I will be gone tonight, I finally get to go to Bunco after like three or four months of not going. I can't wait!! Until next time.... Have fun!!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I'll tell ya, we've got quite the array of pets, in our house we have a male beta fish named Zipper, we have a female tarantula Shiloh, and now a female guinea pig Rosie. Then my mom and sister have birds (my mom has one, Gina has two) and my sister-in-law has a snake. That's quite the collection!! I think my Rosie is simply adorable!!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
So I took her to the doctor today and he was a little concerned about her growth, so he called the pediatrician to see if we needed to take her to an endocrinologist to see if she has growth hormone deficiencies. After talking with him he told me they'll wait until she's two and then if she hasn't seen much growth then we'll have to go up to Children's Primary Center to see an endocrinologist. But they wanted to take a few blood samples to test her for some other things. So then he left and they gave her 5 shots, they've been out of the hemoglobin shot so she hasnt' been getting those, she also got a TB shot in her arm. Then we had to take her to have her blood drawn. They had me bring her into their "emergency room" and had me lay her down on the table and then they put the needle in her arm. Poor Zoe, this definately wasn't a very fun doctor visit. I handled everything fine until I got to the van and then I just started bawling. I don't mind having small kids, but I'm so tired of worrying that there's possibly something wrong with her. My doctor made it seem like even if she did have growth hormone deficiencies that it wasn't that big of a deal and he told me his daughter actually had this problem and she just needed to have shots. Zoe is off the charts in weight which she has been since her 3 month checkup but she's been going up. Her height dropped from the 50% down to 5% so maybe that's why he was a little concerned.
Anyway, here are some of the pictures that we took yesterday and a video of her eating her cake. There's two of them, the first is when I first gave it to her and the second I handed the camera to my wonderful sister-in-law LeeAnn so I could help dish up the cake. Both are so cute!!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
For the past year I have been able to breastfeed Zoe, this is a HUGE accomplishment for me and a HUGE testimony builder as well. Let me explain why, I wasn't able to nurse my first two girls. I nursed Hailey for three weeks and the last two days were terrible but I didn't dare tell Randy I didn't want to nurse her anymore (I'm not particularly sure why). But I finally told him I would rather bash my head in with a rock then feed her. Thankfully he was very understanding (I was serious about the bashing head thing). So the whole experience with Hailey wasn't good, then I had Katie and while I was in the hospital I had a really hard time with it. I remember I felt like I started right where I finished off with Hailey. The nurses had the lactation consultant come in and she was there for 45 minutes and she was insane! I was so frustrated by the time she left that I just broke down and bawled for about 45 minutes. So while I was in the hospital I decided that I wanted to enjoy this baby and I didn't think I would be able to if I nursed her. Well, I always felt a little guilty that I didn't really give her a good try, so when I was pregnant with Zoe I decided that I was really going to give it my best shot. Here comes the testimony building part. As the due date got closer I kept telling Randy that I didn't want any help from nurses or anybody, if I was going to nurse her it would be between me, Zoe and the Lord. For any of you who have had children, most the time the nurses will ask you if it's your first child or not, then they usually ask if you are breastfeeding, or not. Well, they asked me if this was my first, I would tell them, no this is my third. Then they would ask if I was breastfeeding, when I told them yes, I think they figured that I had nursed the other two and that I was a pro. Thankfully no one asked if I nursed the other two, until they were giving me the "checkout" speeches. Anyway, I remember while I was in the hospital I would pray for help before I nursed her. It sounds a little stupid, but I was kind of scared to nurse Zoe because of my prior experiences. I remember the day after I had her was a particularly bad day. I was lonely and I really wanted Randy with me but he was home with the other two and we didn't have a babysitter. I was having a hard time with nursing her and I was getting very frustrated. So I prayed and I told myself I needed to relax, so I listened to my I-pod nano and looked out the window at the scenery. I also had to erase everything I had read or heard about nursing and just went on instincts, best thing I did I think.
Anyway, to make an already long story short, I've been able to nurse Zoe this whole time and it's such an amazing thing for me. I still can't believe sometimes that I was actually able to do it. I can't say I've always enjoyed it, in fact about 6 months ago I wanted to stop soooo bad, but I knew I would regret it. Now, I'm a little sad to think I'll be done. Now the reason I hope this doesn't offend anyone is because it's pushed so hard everywhere to nurse your baby, and I believe it causes feelings of failure for those that can't breastfeed. For anyone who hasn't been able to or didn't want to breastfeed their baby, I know how you feel. I have been on both sides of this issue and I know from personal experience, breastfeeding isn't for everyone. It's not an easy thing, and if you can't nurse your child, DON"T EVER LET ANYONE MAKE YOU FEEL GUILTY!! Breastfeeding your child isn't the most important thing in life, what's important is that your baby is loved!! It always bugs me when women are so fixed on one way or the other! Anyway, this whole experience has been a testimony builder that when you really put your life in Heavenly Fathers hands, trust in him, and fully accept that you can't do it without him you can do anything!!
I am thankful for my little one, and for her presence in our home this past year. I'm thankful to my Heavenly Father for the help I have received with her and with my other two children. I love my family so much, they mean the world to me. I'm thankful to all my friends, for your love and support. I'm also grateful for my extended family and my in-laws, they are all wonderful!!
So, this post has been kind of a weird one, oh well, I guess it suits me then doesn't it!!
Friday, October 10, 2008
Anyway, not much of an exciting post, but I don't really have time to make it cutesy, as I said above, I have a LOT of work to do before Sunday. My next post will be all sorts of fun though, because I will have pictures of Zoe's birthday, I can't tell you how excited I am to watch her eat her first piece of cake, I think she'll tear into more than the other two did. Well, hope you have a great day (or night depending on when you are reading this) and come back soon to see pictures of Zoe with her cake!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Marc, what a goof ball!
Hannah and Hailey
Heather holding Zoe
Anyway, sorry for this odd post, but lately I have been feeling very lonely, which is ridiculous, I am surrounded by people! I just think I miss the kind of friendships you have in highschool, or college, or when you work with people. I just miss having a really close girlfriend. They really are a gift from Heaven when you find a good one! I hope no one takes offense to this blog, I do have a lot of good friends, and I love each of you! I should be a better friend and call all of my good friends, but sometimes it's hard for me. My two really good friends from highschool (Annie, and Holly) are some of the best friends ever, but because I feel so different in my life circumstances (I have three kids they don't have any) I sometimes feel out of place. It's funny how your current stage in life changes how you feel the world looks at you. I wish I could just see myself as Jessica, but instead I categorize myself as a mom. Now please don't misunderstand what I'm saying, I love being a mom, I love my daughters so much and they give so much to my life! But sometimes I think I get too caught up in that and I don't know how to just be me. I don't know if this makes any sense at all, it probably doesn't. I just wish I saw myself as Jessica, who is a mom instead of a Mom who is Jessica. I really don't know how to explain what I've been feeling lately, so sorry about this blog, it probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but it's always nice to express how I feel.
Monday, September 29, 2008
1. You love me so much, and I know it. You always do little things that show me. My favorite is that my nick name (if that's what you want to call it) is Georgeous
2. You always say thank you for the little things I do for you, like hide notes in your suitcase when you go on trips. I love that you love when I do those things for you
3. I absolutely love how easy it is for me to surprise you with things! I don't know if it's because I'm unusually good at hiding things, or if it's because you don't pay attention to tiny details that would give things away. Either way, I love it!
4. You are so patient with me, I have a lot of things I need to work on and when I accomplish little things that I'm excited about you get excited for me too.
5. I love it when you do silly things that make me laugh and sometimes pee my pants (It was the day before I had Zoe, so I guess I had an excuse!)
6. I like it when you talk about tv's and even though I have no idea what you're talking about, I'm glad you talk to me anyway!
7. I love it when you catch me looking at you, you always get this really cute grin!
8. I love to buy you Oreos, it's cute that you like them so much! It's nice to give you that little treat when you come home after work. (He loves Oreos and milk).
9. I love it when you buy me a rose for no reason other than to tell me you love me. I will always remember the time you put a rose on the truck while I was working at H&R Block and then hid around the corner to make sure I got it.
10. I really liked how good you looked in those pants we got you for your birthday (or Christmas, I don't remember which). You know, the ones your family called girl pants. We need to find you some more pants like that.
11. I love that you get excited that you're getting a belly, then you get upset because you don't fit into your old pants anymore. You can't have it both ways.
12. Speaking of, I think it's hilarious that you think you have a belly, you have to poke it out just for people to see it.
13. I love that whenever you can't find anything, for the most part I know where it is. I also love it when I tell you where something is, and you look for it and can't find it. Then I go look in the same spot I told you it was in, and I find it.
14. I love that I can finish your sentences, and that our thoughts are exactly the same a lot of times.
15. I love taking pictures of you while you are sleeping! I'll never forget when you were holding the remote and fell asleep, that was awesome!
16. I love how hot you look in your work clothes. I have always liked you in Sunday clothes!!
17. I love your testimony and your strength, it gives me comfort and strength.
18. I absolutely love that you hold the priesthood so worthily, and that you are so willing to bless our family with it.
19. I love to cuddle with you.
20. I love that I drive you crazy!
21. I love your hands
22. I absolutely love your smile
23. I love your laugh, especially when you laugh really hard
24. Your such a good dad to the girls, they adore you and I love to watch you play with them.
25. I love to watch Zoe crawl as fast as she can to you when you get home
26. You turn into such a kid when you talk about sound equipment, or trucks, or tools
Thursday, September 25, 2008
DREAM VACATION: This one was really hard, because there's so many places that I want to go, I would love to go to Australia, Ireland, and Switzerland. These are all pictures of Ireland.
Now, I tag McKenna, Sam, and Jenna. Have fun!!
So, Hailey started Preschool and she loves it!! She also starting a reading school where she also gets to work on computers (thanks Sandy for the heads up), she absolutely loves it, and looks so cute! They wear these big headphones that also have a mic on it, I'll have to take a picture tomorrow because she really looks so cute! Katie is talking more and more, and it's a little freaky! She can't wait until she gets to go to school too, that won't be for a couple of years though. She'll go to Sunbeams in January, which is going to be a little weird! For the most part they play together well, but they definately have their days. Zoe is my little Easy Come Easy Go girl, she doesn't seem in a hurry to walk or stand by herself although she LOVES to do these things. She still hasn't attempted to do it on her own and she's still army crawling. She will go up on her hands and knees, but when she starts to move, she goes right back to the army crawl. She also loves to cuddle, and she still loves me! I only have a couple of weeks until she is one, which is a scary thought to me, I can't believe it snuck up so fast. I am excited to be done nursing, I've enjoyed it, but it will be nice to just be me. I'm a little nervous that she'll have a hard time weaning, she really enjoys her morning time and bed time feedings. Zoe now has three teeth on the bottom, and I'm pretty sure I saw a third tooth on the top peeking through.
All of us are doing well, I'm really excited for some changes that Randy and I are making, I think they will really improve our lives. Life is so exciting, everyday is a chance for something better! Everyday we can decide to make our lives better or worse, or let them stay the same. I feel like we are finally moving forward, it's a very exciting time!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
I realized today just how much I love my kids, I've been sick, and I tried to take a nap today, Zoe was asleep, so I knew my window was short, I was trying to get Katie to stay in her room. Finally she did, but I only got about 15-30 minutes of sleep before Zoe woke up. Thankfully though I've found a way to be able to snooze on the couch, all I have to do is put in the Nature movie we made, put Zoe in her bouncer and keep Cheerios on her tray. So I did that today just so I could relax and hopefully get some of this pressure in my sinus' to subside. As I was laying there, all I could do was watch Zoe, I am just so amazed at kids, they truly are a miracle. We all are, it was so fun to watch her get excited over things, waving her little arms. How can you look at babies, and reflect on the complexities of the human body and not believe in God? How can you believe that we just evolved, or just happened to come about. It just doesn't make sense to me. I struggle sometimes, and forget the miracle that my children are, but I have been trying to do better at constantly remembering that they're not my children at all, they're Heavenly Father's children and he has trusted me to take care of them. How I hope I can do a job that would make him proud. I know in moments of weakness I am the exact opposite of what he wants for his children, but I also feel that in moments when I slow down and try to be understanding I am closer to the Mother that God wants me to be. I do love my children, and I love my husband!
Speaking of my husband, yesterday I had one of those moments where I realize how much I love him and how blessed I am to have him. It's been five years now since we were first married, and although it hasnt' always been easy it has always been fun. I used to think that the marriage that Randy and I share was more or less average, everyone had a marriage like ours, but I am coming to realize that's not the case. I'm sure there are other people that do have one like ours, but I've heard so many people say that there were times that they wanted to get out. I have never felt that way, Randy and I have never yelled at each other, we've never really fought, we've hurt each others feelings before, but we always talk it out and we always forgive each other and move on. I love my husband so much, for the wonderful friend he is to me, and for the awesome father that he is to our three girls. They adore their dad, I love to watch him play with the girls, and I can't wait to see him pal around with his son (just so you know, I am not making an announcement, not for another year). I am so grateful for my family, not just Randy and the girls, but for my parents and siblings, and Randy's parents and siblings. I love them all so much!
I'm grateful for the wonderful blessing of families!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
These were taken after she had a bath, this morning as we were leaving she had a face only a mother could love, she was so dirty and her nose was so red! Poor thing, I feel like such a terrible mom. Just a note, her sore looks worse then it is. It's really just a scrape, it kind of looks like a gash in the picture but it's not. It almost just looks like a bruise, just really red. Then, I almost thought we adopted black children for a while, I can't believe how dirty two little girls can get!!
They had fun, I'm just glad I put them in clothes that I'm not partial to. We did have a lot of fun, though, we ended up going to Payson Lakes and we let the girls swim, we didn't bring swimsuits so we went ghetto style! Hailey swam in her underwear and undershirt and we just took Katie's diaper off and put her onesie on and let them swim. They had fun, and we were able to get some of the dirt off. It was a ton of fun!! Really stressful but a lot of fun!