Friday, February 27, 2009

Ok, so it's been a while since I posted anything, I typed up a long post about Hailey's birthday party and it got erased and I haven't had time to do another one since. I do have a lot of fun things to post about though, so hopefully sometime later today or maybe tomorrow I will have time to post them. Anyway, I hope everyone who reads this is doing well, and keep checking, I'll post some super fun pictures and a video of Katie dancing, that is really funny! Talk at ya later!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Hailey's birthday

Yesterday was Hailey's 5th birthday, and it was so much fun!! We took her to Dollar Tree and let her pick out five items, then we took her to lunch wherever she wanted to go, which ended up being McDonalds. Then we took all the girls outside and played because it was so nice outside!! Then we had to run a bunch of errands, but we came home and ate pizza and then I put five cupcakes on a plate with candles in them and she blew them out. It was a lot of fun, I especially enjoyed just spending time with Hailey (and Randy of course). She is such an adorable little girl, she is a lot of fun. We asked her what she thought her talents were, and she said she did whatever Bumblebee told her to do (in case you don't know Hailey is in love with Bumblebee, she even says she's married to him) and then we kind of brought up that she sings good, and draws well. She is so much fun to have in our family, she is a good sister to Katie and Zoe and is a good helper when she wants to be. Anyway, here are some pictures from the day:

In the van, getting ready to go!
Here she is with her basket, ready to shop.
She decided not to get this hat, I was hoping she would pick it because I thought she looked so cute!
This is what she ended up with in her basket, I'm pretty sure there were about 15 or 17 items she had gathered, so we helped her pick what 5 items she wanted
This is her basket with her five items, she is lovingly holding a lionness toy she got
Hailey posed herself on this one, we opened the van to get her in and turned around and she was just waiting there, so I took a picture.
This was another self posed picture, we got her out of the van at McDonalds and turned around and there she was.
I told her to get in the cave, but she did the rest herself. As you can tell, she loves her picture taken and is a good little model!
Here she is with her "cake" she was pretty excited to blow out her candles.
We had so much fun celebrating her birthday, I can't believe she's 5, she'll go to Kindergarten next year and I am freaked out. I can't imagine sending my little girl in that big school! I know she'll love it, she's our social butterfly. The other day I picked her up from Preschool and her teacher said that "Hailey always says the funniest things. All the kids fight over who gets to sit by her, she's pretty popular" I love Hailey so much, and even though she has a pretty big attitude at times (we're working on that) she is so much fun to have in our family. I can't imagine life without her!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Not too sure

So I have been debating writing this post or not, but have finally decided to do it. I hope that you can all view me as a human being who makes mistakes and can love me in spite of that fact. Lately I have been feeling very lonely, it's hard to explain why, but basically I feel like I don't have anyone close to me who is in the same stage of life as me. Most particularly in the baby department, all my friends seem to have these hard pregnancies and I don't. Or, if they have easy pregnancies they have hard labors. Or they don't want as many kids as I do and I feel like they are saying I'm crazy for wanting as many as I do (which lately is now up in the air). I know it seems so ridiculous and I guess I'm searching for validation in who I am and what I want from life, and unfortunately I haven't learned how to gain this on my own but I'm working on it. Anway for about a month or so I have been going through this, and have been talking to a few people about it and I think I've come to some realizations that aren't easy to come to or admit to. This is where I hope that all of you will love me flaws and all. The question I asked myself was why am I surrounded by all these women who have hard pregnancies, and I think I realized that I am meant to learn from them. I read a post that my friend Jenna wrote that touched me very deeply and made me appreciate her so much. You see I think sometimes I take my kids for granted, I know I'm blessed to have them and I love them very much, but I think sometimes subconciously I think of them as merely something I have to do. Please don't take this to mean that I don't love my children because I do. I have been a lot better with this since I have been on depression medication but before I was on that, there were days where I didn't even think I wanted them and they were just one more thing I had to take care of. Like I said I am much better now. Anyway, I read my friends blog and I think for the first time in a long time I realized how truly blessed I am, and in a way I am envious of Jenna (please don't take that wrong). I'll bet that when she looks at or holds her little baby, she knows what a miracle he is. It wasn't easy for her to get him here and then when he did get here it was shaky for a couple of days. I love this woman so much for letting me learn from her experiences. I know she would never wish upon me what she goes through to get her children here, and I wouldn't want to go through it either, but I am so blessed that I can learn from her. Jenna, you are an amazing person, thank you so much for being an example to me and for sharing your experience with me. You truly are someone I look up to.

Next I have my friend McKenna, who would love nothing more than to have a child of her own. The world seems so unfair sometimes, why some women get pregnant so easily yet doesn't seem to want them and women who can't and desperately want one. McKenna, you are one of the strongest women I know, your example to me is simply indescribable. I know you don't think you have much to give to people or the world sometimes but I assure you, you have much to give. You are a beautiful person inside and out and one day you are going to be an amazing mother to a very lucky and special child. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with me, I can't thank you enough for your example to me.

I truly am grateful for my daughters, they teach me constantly of love, and I get a small glimpse of the love that Heavenly Father has for each one of us as his children. Yesterday Hailey had a Valentine's Day party at school and was given a heart shaped slinky (you know the plastic kind that break easily). Her and Katie were playing with it and it got completely bent out of shape and no longer worked. Hailey was so upset she was crying, I tried to explain that we could cut some of it off and just make it a smaller slinky. I was having a hard time because she wouldn't stop crying and I kept wanting to tell her it wasn't a big deal but I knew it was to her. I was upstairs and could hear her crying downstairs so I finally came down to talk with her. She was sitting on the floor holding her slinky with a pair of scissors, trying to cut off the broken pieces and just crying. I came down and helped cut off the ends and then I held her and let her cry. I was on the phone with Randy and he was totally ready to go find another one, but he didn't. After the kids were in bed we began talking and Randy was saying how he would have done anything to make it better, he seriously would have gone and found one and brought it home for her. Then he said that he knew he shouldn't because this is something that Hailey needs to deal with and learn from. It made us both think of Heavenly Father and how I'm sure that when things happen to us He knows that on an Eternal perspective it may not matter, but to us it does. I'm sure it breaks his heart to watch us go through our trials and wants to fix it for us and make it better. However, He knows that they are there to teach us lessons. I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who allows me to struggle and learn the lessons I need to learn to live with him again. I am grateful for wonderful examples in my life and for the love that is extended to me. To Jenna and McKenna, I love you both so much, you are both constantly in my prayers. Thank you so much for teaching me things I need to learn. You are both amazing women and I am so blessed to have you in my life!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Parenting Class

So Randy and I have talked about this for a long time, but we're finally going to try to pull it together. We found this really good book called Positive Discipline (for those of you who are my friends on facebook, there's a good chance you've already gotten this message) and the book teaches you why children misbehave and how to handle it. We have read most of it, and it definately takes practice and learning to put in to motion the techniques it uses. However, the book is meant to be done in a parenting group. So Randy and I are going to begin this group, it's supposed to be two hours once a week for eight weeks. So, we want our good friends to come and learn better ways to deal with children. We would be willing to host it at our house, Monday, Tuesday and Saturday nights are the best for us, or possibly Sunday nights. Please if you are interested you can send me a message on facebook, or my email ( We would really like to start soon and would LOVE to have anyone who wants join us. You would need to buy the book, it's called Positive Discipline by Jane Nelsen, Ed. D.

I hope I'll hear from some of you soon :0)

Valentine's Day

So I've been thinking about Valentines Day a lot this week, I talked to my sister-in-law who was telling me she didn't want to be alone on Valentines Day and I got thinking back to highschool when I used to call it Singles Awareness Day. Then I was thinking how sad it was that I called it that, and that a lot of people see it the same way. I am starting to believe that Valentines Day was meant for much more than it is. It's a day dedicated to love, a day to show love to family, friends, neighbors, to significant others, but most importantly to yourself. So to all those who are single and reading this, take this day and spoil yourself! I also want to extend a challenge to everyone, write a letter to yourself expressing the qualities and attributes that you love about yourself, and what makes you unique. Then store it away and read it anytime you need a pick me up. I would also say to those of you who are married or have a special someone, write a letter to them also expressing the same things about them. It's so much fun to tell someone you love them, not just in words but in actions. Do something nice for those you love, try to make Valentines day a day of service. I am actually really looking forward to this Valentines day, not because we have anything particularly special planned, but just because I think it will be a good opportunity to remember how much I love all the special people in my life and to let them know that. Anyway, so this was kind of a lame post, but I had a lot of fun thinking about this today and wanted to share it!

What do you do with the weather?

So what do you do when the day starts out raining, then turns to snow, then stops, there's some sunshine, then more snow, and on and on, you know typical Utah weather. If you're like us, you have an indoor picnic! Hailey wanted to have a picnic the other day, so I decided we would. So we layed out a blanket on the floor and ate our dinner of hoagie sandwiches, macaroni and cheese and doritos chips on it. It was fun to have something a little different than a normal dinner. I can't wait until it's warm and we can have a real picnic at a park!! Here are a few pictures

Saturday, February 7, 2009

The Bucket List Tag

The idea of this tag is to put an X on the things that I have done, and then answer some questions about myself. Here goes...

Swam in the ocean

Gone to Washington DC

Gone on a blind date

Skipped school X

Watched someone die X

Been to Canada

Been to Mexico

Been to Florida X

Been to a foreign country

Been on a plane X

Been lost X

Been on the opposite side of the country X

Cried yourself to sleep X

Played cops and robbers

Recently colored with crayons X

Sang Karaoke X

Paid for a meal with coins only X

Skipped out without paying for a meal

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? X

Made prank phone calls X

Caught a snowflake on your tongue X

Watched the northern lights dance

Danced in the rain

Written a letter to Santa Claus X

Been kissed under the mistletoe X

Watched the sunrise with someone

Watched the sunset with someone X

Blown bubbles X

Can hula hoop?

Gone ice-skating X

Been skinny dipping outdoors

Gone to the movie's ALONE

Gone to a horror movie and laughed through it

1. Any nicknames? Pidget, pidgy, Jessie, and a whole lot of others that no one uses anymore

2. Mother's name? Denise

3. Favorite drink? Wild Cherry Pepsi

4. Body Piercing? Just my ears

5. How much do you like your job? I love it

6. Dad's name? Phillip

7. Favorite vacation?

8. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? Yes

9. Ever eaten mud? no

10. Ever been on TV? no

11. Ever steal any traffic signs? no

12. Ever been in a car accident? yes

14. Can you drive a standard car? yes

15. Favorite pie? my moms pumpkin pie (it's actually made with banana squash)

16. Favorite number? I don't know that I have one

17. Favorite movie? While you were Sleeping,

18. Favorite dessert? Probably ice cream

19. Book on CD or regular book? regular

20. Favorite food? mexican

21. Favorite day of the week? Monday night and Tuesday, Randy's day off is Tuesday

22. Favorite brand of body wash? Whichever one smells good, I don't really have a favorite

23. Favorite toothpaste? Any gel toothpaste

24. Favorite smells? Lilacs

25. How do you relax? either watching tv, or reading

26. How do you see yourself in 10 years? In a home, surrounded by family and friends with 5 or 6 kids maybe? And also being financially secure

27. What is your favorite breed of dog? Shitzu Maltese, I think they are so flippin cute

28. Like to celebrate by going out or staying in? It depends, I really like going out to dinner, but then I absolutely love coming home, curling up on the couch and watching a movie with my honna!

I tag Jenna, McKenna, and Sam

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Baby Tag

1- Where were you when you first found out you were pregnant? At my in-laws

2- Who was with you? Randy, and his family. We told LeeAnn first, then the rest of his family

3- How did you find out that you were pregnant? We were trying so I took a test just before I was supposed to start

4- What was your first reaction to finding out you were pregnant? I was so excited

5- Who was the first person you told? Randy

6-Was everybody happy for you? Yes

7- Did you go out and celebrate? Not really

8- Did you get morning sickness? No, I felt a little icky sometimes and threw up a couple of times, but nothing bad

9- Did you want to find out the sex? No, but we were pretty sure it was a girl

10- What was the sex? girl

11- Did anyone throw you a baby shower? Yes, I kind of helped my sister-in-law throw one for me

12- How much weight did you gain? 25 pounds

13- Did you lose all of the weight that you gained? No

14- Did you get a lot of stretch marks? Yes, tons!

15- What did you crave the most? apples? I didn't really have any cravings

16- Did you crave anything crazy? No

17- Who or what got on your nerves the most? All the advice and comments from others. I worked at Kmart and I heard stuff ALL the time

18- Were you married at the time? Yes

19- Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? Not really, I did go to the hospital around 7 or 8 months because of back pain but I just had the flu

20- Where were you when you went into labor? I was in the shower when I felt the first contraction

21- Did your water break? Yes at the hospital

22- Who drove you to the hospital? My husband

24- Did you go early or late? She was 11 days early

25- Who was in the room with you when you gave birth? Just Randy and my doctor and a nurse

26- Was it video taped? No

27- Did you have any drugs for the pain? Oh yeah!!

28-Did you go Natural or have a c-section? Natural

29- If natural, how long did you push? I only pushed three times

30- What was your first reaction after giving birth? I don't think it had really hit me yet, I was just glad to have her here

31- How big was the baby(s)? 6 lbs 8 0z

32- Did your Husband cry? I don't think so

33- What did you name the baby(s)? Hailey Marie

34- Did the baby(s) have any complications? Nope

35- How old is your baby today? 5 on the 20th

36- When is the next one(s) coming? Hopefully next January

37-If you could, would you do it all over again? Yup!

I tag Ashley W, Robin, Rachel Fordham, and Laura Miller