Healthy Lifestyle

So my friends, the time has come to change my lifestyle habits. I actually started changing them in January but it's been a long up hill battle, I do have 20 pounds lost to show for it, but it should have been more. I'm still working hard, and I've started exercising along with dieting now. I started P90X on May 11th, but I'm only on week 5, confused? Looking at the calender and saying, but Jessica, that doesn't add up! Yeah, that's because I took about a week off due to sickness and then vacation. It was really hard to get back in to things after our St. George trip and I just started up again on Wednesday, but then I had a Relief Society activity last night and I ate more than I should have. Why is it so hard to be good when you're at functions like that? I wish I had the willpower to say no to desserts and definitely no to seconds (of dinner and desserts). I am human though and I make bad choices just like everyone else, I just can't wait until a night like that every once in a while won't set me back. While I'm in the mode of weight loss though I really should refrain from doing that, but oh well, as long as I get back on the horse and try very hard not to get off again. I've talked to a few people who have also done P90X and the South Beach Diet and she said the first two weeks went really well, so I'm planning on doing phase one of the South Beach Diet but also staying under my 1200 calories. The week after that we'll be camping and I'm going to focus on planning meals that can be made fairly healthy for me, although, it's really hard to diet when you're not at home, so I plan on going on the phase 1 after we get home and complete the full two weeks. I'm really hoping to get back on schedule to meet my goal by mid-September. Currently I'm 4 pounds away from my marriage weight, which is pretty cool, unfortunately that's still 25 to 30 pounds away from my goal weight. Baby steps, baby steps, I have to just focus on the day to day and not think about how far I have to go. I'm also really clueless as to how I'm going to maintain my weight once it's gone, I'm not sure how to up my calorie count without losing weight. Do you have any tips for me? I will take any at this point.

In other news, our little family is doing well, Hailey is done with school and her week of summer camp that she had. It's nice and not so nice to have her home, she's definitely excited for school to start and is very excited to go to second grade. Katie will start Kindergarten this year, I hope Zoe will handle being the only one (besides JD) not in school, when the other two girls were going to school Zoe would tell them how she had her school. I have no idea what she's referring to, cause I certainly never did school with her, I really should though, I think that would make the transition next year easier for her. Zoe is our little mischievous one, she pesters her sisters (and brother) a LOT and pays for it by getting hit, then she comes crying to me. Sometimes it's all I can do not to slap her and Katie silly when they get going. When they get along, they do awesome and they have so much fun with each other. Sometimes I look at my kids and realize how amazing life is, that we start out so little and helpless and eventually we grow up and our bodies change. It strengthens my testimony of our loving Heavenly Father, there's no way life would be possible without a higher being over all of it. I love this gospel so much and I'm so thankful to have it in my life, I don't know what I would do without it!

Well, that's enough I hope that whoever reads this is doing great, cause I'm certainly trying to do just that!

Skinny People

Ever notice how when you buy a new car suddenly you notice that everyone drives that car? That's how I feel right now with skinny people. I am struggling BIG time with losing weight, I've been dieting since January 10th, and I keep having set backs where I stop dieting for about a week or so and then I get back to it. Therefore, I have been stuck in the 160's since March. I'm very VERY tired of being overweight, but especially of being stuck around 166. I feel like all the people around me are super skinny, and it makes me feel like a fat blob. Why is it SO hard to eat healthy, not just eat healthy but actually diet?? I want to lose weight so bad, the desire is there but apparently no drive cause I'm not going anywhere. I looked over a couple of the different diets that I've done, and I got really motivated, and I think I may have figured out where my mistakes have been that's been keeping me stuck. Then, not even two hours later, I'm feeling depressed and hopeless again. Is it too much to ask of myself to change a few things?? Why am I so scared to change even when I don't like how things currently are? I know what changes would help me feel better about myself and yet they're the things I'm most scared to give up. Why am I holding on to things that are so hurtful to me? I know that through Christ ALL things are possible so why am I not willing to make that leap? Why don't I have the faith to say, "Ok Father, I'm ready to really give this a go, will you help me?" I feel like I've prayed for help with these issues before, but I don't think I really had any intention to change. I'm scared and I don't know why, I know that these changes would make me a happier and better person, wouldn't you think I'd be jumping at the chance?? I want to change, but I'm not sure at all how to actually go about it, and I'm scared. So.... that's where I am.

On a more positive note, JD turned one on Sunday, I can't believe it's already been a year! Oh how I love my little man, sometimes I just watch him play and try to figure things out and it never fails to amaze me that he is a little person with his own little thoughts. I watched some of the videos we took of him in his first moments of life and it never ceases to amaze me. The miracle of birth is astounding to me! All of us are created inside someone else, it's unbelievable! How can anyone doubt that there's a higher being who is over everything. Anyway, enough of that, we had a lot of time partying with family. JD mostly got clothes which is great because kids always need clothes, he also got a singing card from his great-grandma Grimes, and I think it might have won the favorite gift award. He would open it and shake his head with a grin on his face. He played with that for probably 5 to ten minutes (which is a long time for a one year old) it was so fun to watch him "dance". He is still small for his age, but he's staying on his own curve, so I'm not worried about him, his oldest sister is still small. He weighed in at 16 pounds 1 ounce yesterday at his WIC appointment, that's up almost a pound I think since the last time he went in which was in March, so I'd say he's doing pretty darn good!

In other news, Hailey's school has been doing a program called "Reading on Down the Road" where they challenged students her age to read 1000 minutes by April 30th and they'll get a t-shirt, and I am happy to say she is going to make that goal! I am so proud of her, I never did these sort of things while I was in school and I always regretted it, and I am so glad that I've been able to help her accomplish this. I've been reading Harry Potter to them every night just before they go to bed and it's been a lot of fun for me, plus, it helps them go to sleep better (Zoe is usually asleep within the first five minutes or so of me ready).

Katie is just about done with Preschool, and I can't wait to be done paying for it! She is really excited to go to school with Hailey next year! She has such an amazing memory, I am constantly blown away by how well she remembers stuff. She still can be quite challenging sometimes because she is so stubborn, maybe that memory thing isn't so great after all. Just kidding, I'm very excited, a good memory will really help her out in life (I wish I had that).

Since I've given an update on all the others, I can't forget Zoe. What can I say about my little Zoe, I am so grateful that she is in our home, that little stinker is awesome! I love her so much, it's amazing to me how much families all fit together! Zoe will be so happy to go to school, she already talks about "her school" I don't have a clue where she comes up with all the stuff she does in "her school" cause I don't do any of it. I really should take time out and come up with a "school" she can go to. She is excited to be a big kid like her sisters, and I need to let her be a big kid. I know I baby her, and I'm not sure why, I guess when there's older kids in the house 3 doesn't seem as old as it does when your first child is 3. I have no idea if that made sense or not, oh well, if it didn't just read it a few times and think about it, it might eventually make sense.

Well that's that, I'm really hoping to start writing regularly here, so that I have a journal of some sorts, it would be good to write down experiences somewhere and I'm not sure why, but it just seems easier to blog than to write in a journal. Although, both would probably be good. Anyway, until next time!!

Change

So.... I feel like we've dealt with a lot of change in the past 5 weeks around here. The first and biggest change has been Randy's new job, it's been interesting to get used to that, the second is that JD is now on formula. That was a hard switch for me (which actually kind of surprised me because I bottle fed my first two kids) I felt guilty and like I wasn't enough because I couldn't give him what he needed. However, I am better now, and I am just excited to see him so happy and content. He has been so much better since Sunday (which is when we made the switch) and I'm hoping that he'll go back to gaining weight! You see, he lost weight and both his WIC appointment and his doctors appointment, but what really sealed the decision in my mind (I'd been thinking about since the Tuesday before the Sunday we made the switch) was when Randy sweetly commented that maybe we should supplement him with a bottle. He said when he bathed him he could see JD's ribs, and that was it, I was done. So I gave him a bottle, and I think that day I already noticed a difference. So now, I don't need to stress about whether or not he's getting enough, it's EXTREMELY relieving!!

Valentine's day is coming up soon, I have no idea what I'm going to do, right now, I don't want to do anything. When did I turn in to such a party poop? For the most part I'm content to just sit at home and watch a movie here. I think this year I want to make it more about my entire family, not just my husband. I'd like to come up with a way that I can make it special for my kids too, I want them to feel especially loved on Valentines day, what are some things you guys do for your family? Feel free to leave me with some ideas!

So I don't have much to say, things are going good. Randy is very excited about his new job, he's had training for the past couple of days and he'll actually start his job next Wednesday, he can't wait! He was actually hoping he would start this week, but he's done after tomorrows training. Then the real adjustment will start, I think we're all ready for it to come though so we can start adjusting. I took Katie to the doctor this morning, I was pretty sure she had a kidney infection, however they didn't get enough urine for a culture but they had enough to do a stick test which showed that it was an infection they just don't know what kind. So they gave her an antibiotic shot and then we also started oral antibiotics that she'll take every 12 hours for ten days (or until it's gone). Poor thing has not been feeling well at all today, I really hope that she'll be better tomorrow. We went to bed at midnight last night and she came in our room 3 times between then and 3 or 3:30 when she came in our room and threw up. She had it in her hair, on her hands, her feet, our carpet, our sheet. It was awful, and it smelled SO bad, I thought she had an accident as well, but nope just throw up (sorry if that's too much information). So we had to get her in the bathtub, poor thing, it was an awful experience. After I washed her hair there were too many floaties in it so we had to drain the tub and refill it, but along with her fever she had the chills. She was shaking SO bad!! So we got her bathed and then I blow dried her hair and sent her back to bed with a bucket in case she needed to throw up again. Then when she woke up this morning she came in to my room and announced that she had to throw up, so I told her to go to the bathroom. While she threw up she also peed, so we had to clean up that mess, however, I would rather clean up a pee accident then throw up. So then the rest of the morning was filled with taking her to the doctor which was crazy! I got home at noon, and at about 1:30 I crashed on the couch while they watched The Cat in the Hat. I know that we're not supposed to use the TV as a babysitter, but I sure am glad for the option on days like today. Other than that we're all doing well here! I am so grateful that she doesn't have anything contagious that I have to worry about the other kids getting. It's been awhile since I've posted pictures here, I'll try to remedy that soon, but not tonight. I really need to go to bed as well!! So, until next time, which I'm hoping will be soon because I want Sam to also write a new post. We have a deal going on now where she'll write a new post after I do. So....get writing Sam!

I never know what to put

I really don't like labeling my posts, cause I really never know what to put. I now have a reason (at least I feel like it's more of a reason) to blog, my sister in law and her husband moved to Cedar City so now when they want to see how we're doing they can check out the ol' blog. I'm very excited, perhaps this will help me blog more. So, we're getting ready to go back to school, or at least Randy is. I'm really excited for him to do this, he wants to be a PT, how awesome would that be? I think he would enjoy that a lot, apparently it's a pretty competitive field, but where there's a will there's a way, especially if you include the Lord. So we've been praying and I'm pretty sure Randy has fasted and we'll see if that's what we should be doing. In other news, JD is cutting his bottom two teeth, I'm excited and a bit relieved (I hate feeling like he's slow) but I'm going to miss that gummy smile! He LOVES to play the piano with Daddy, I took a video last night, I'll post it soon. He also is starting to talk more, or should I say scream. It's pretty cute, I love my little guy. The girls REALLY like him too, especially Katie right now. She was told that she was ok to hold him, well, she's taken it to a whole new level. She'll pick him up and walk around with him, you know those pictures with kids holding cats and the cat looks like he's screaming for help? Her holding JD reminds me of those pictures, she does all right with him, except that she'll get him out of his bouncer, his crib, his swing, she's tried walking down the stairs with him a couple of times. It's frustrating when he's playing just fine in his bouncer or swing and she'll get him out which after a minute or so of her holding him he gets mad. Then he doesn't want to go back in his bouncer which is a downer for me because then I can't continue doing whatever I was doing in the first place. Oh well, at least she wants to interact with him right? I don't really have much else to say right now, and I really should be getting Katie ready to go to school, so for now I'll say adieu, but I'm sure I'll be back soon, just don't hold your breath on that ;0)

Hello, yes, I'm still here

So I must admit, I have a hard time writing on my blog because I'm not really sure why I do it, all my family lives close so they have no need to check it out, I'm not sure if I have any friends that still check it out. So it's very hard to update it, I enjoy writing my feelings here and putting up pictures, but like I said, it feels like it's all in vain. Oh well, I guess I should write it just so it's written. We're all doing well here, Hailey is LOVING school, I told her we have a dentist appointment on the 21st which is the last day of school before the Christmas break. She was very upset because she doesn't want to miss school, I told her I would try to figure something out. Usually kids want to miss school, but not her. She loves her teacher and loves helping her out. SHe is such a loving girl, she loves to give hugs to everyone, and I mean EVERYONE! She can also be an amazing helper around the house when she wants to be, she is such an amazing big sister (most the time) and is pretty good to help out with the younger kids. She loves to bear her testimony, she'll ask us in Sacrament if it's the free time (testimony meeting). I love her to pieces!! Katie has been fun too, she likes her preschool, but I think she really wants to go to Kindergarten. I'm excited for next year, I know she'll absolutely LOVE going to the same school as Hailey. We just had her birthday, she's five now, she had a lot of fun being the center of attention! Zoe is still the boss around here, everything has to be just right for her. She is constantly correcting everybody! If you call her anything but Zoe she makes sure you know her name is Zoe, not whatever you called her. They all have quite the personalities! Then there's JD, he's doing really well, we started him on solid foods a month ago, so far his favorite is sweet potatoes. It looks like he's going to be like his sisters in not liking any fruit, which doesn't make a lot of sense to me, but whatever! He's finally started to roll over, he doesn't get very much time to practice, his sisters don't think he can be left alone so he doesn't get much of an opportunity to try. He sure is loved by all of us!

I am so grateful for the opportunity Randy and I have been blessed with to have children. They are such fun little people to have around, they constantly teach me about Heavenly Father and His love for us. What a blessing it is to be here and to be the mom to these wonderful sweet spirits, even if I'd really like to smack them around sometimes!! So yeah, we're doing well, getting ready to do some new things soon, like school, hopefully a new job for Randy and other things. Hopefully I can keep blogging, even if it is just so I have a record of things. Well, until next time, enjoy life! Merry Christmas, in case I don't get around to it :0)

It happened again

It's happened again, it's been forever since I blogged, I have no idea if anyone even still looks at my blog. We're surviving here, things are tight financially due to slow business. We are getting in to the busy time of the year though, so hopefully things will get better. We're all doing well, we're getting ready to celebrate Zoe's third birthday, I can't believe she's 3! It's insane, she's the cutest little thing ever, but she can also be the biggest pain in the butt!! Her and Katie are getting along better though, which is so nice, I think having Hailey at school all day has been good for their relationship because it forces them to play together. Katie is in preschool now, and she loves it!! I really like her preschool, it's called Wiz Kidz and they do some really cute things and it's only about a mile and a half away so it only takes about 5 minutes to get there. Hailey I believe is enjoying school, she has a boyfriend named Nicky, I guess they hold hands when they walk/run the golden mile. That's where they walk around their school I believe 4 times to make it a mile, they do this every day. Then you have little JD, he's definitely growing, at his 2 month check up he was in the 3% for height and at his 4 month checkup he was in the 75% for his height. That's a serious amount of growth!!! He's the tallest of our kids, he is SO stinking cute! He's kind of starting to roll over, he gets stuck on his arm. He doesn't get very much time to practice due to his loving older sisters. They just can't seem to leave him alone!! He talks quite a bit too, we really like him! Other news on me, I dyed my hair brown, I lost weight, gained weight. I really need to diet again, but it makes me depressed so it's very hard to stick to one. Hopefully things will get a little easier and make dieting less depressing for me. Anyway, that's that, we're just plugging along. I hope all of you are doing well too!