Slacker

Wow, I've been such a slacker lately, I'm sorry. We worked on our computer for a couple of days and for the past few the monitor has been our tv so I haven't felt like using the wireless keyboard and I haven't had time to sit down and type. Anyway, I have so much to blog about, Zoe had her 2nd birthday, it was a lot of fun! I love her so much, our family wouldn't be the same without her, she is such a cutie!! I do have some pictures, I'll post some hopefully soon. So I set up my doctor appointment today, I'll go in for blood work and the insurance talk on November 3rd and then I'll actually see my doctor on the 6th. It's crazy that they're that far out! I went to Baby Your Baby and got on that, and now I am in the process of applying for Medicaid. I hate getting stuff like this, but it helps SOO much! I guess if we qualify why not, right?

So I'm finishing this post finally, it's a few days later but better late than never right? So our computer isn't working, it won't turn on so I am using our laptop (thank Heaven we didn't give it away) we erased everything on it and it works so much better now. It's nice to have a back up, hopefully PC laptops can fix it, if not, we're in trouble. So anyway, life is going ok I guess, we're hanging in there. This month has been a hard one, I've had really great ups but really bad lows. Do you ever just want someone to talk to who won't say anything back but the occasional ya uh-huh or nod of the head? Someone who will focus on JUST you for maybe five or ten minutes? Lately I feel really alone in that arena, it's great that I have Randy who listens to me, but being a guy he wants to fix it when I just want someone to listen. I know I used to be the kind that just talked and talked about myself (Heather can attest to this), but I've really tried to be better about that and listen to others and be there for them. I feel like I've really improved in this area (I could be wrong, but I'm hoping I'm not), but every once in a while, it would be really nice to be the one focused on and venting frustrations. Perhaps the answer I'm looking for is as simple as prayer, maybe I just need to learn to pray with ALL my heart and learn to meditate and feel His spirit. Maybe then I'll receive the spiritual nods, uh-huh's and yups I'm seeking. How come the simplest answers always seem to be the hardest things to do? Oh well.

So, on a more positive note, this week is Red Ribbon Week at Hailey's school, they have a few fun activities going on, like tomorrow! It's crazy hair and sock day and CAN"T wait!! I am going to do Hailey's hair crazy and let her borrow some of my toe socks, I'm going to put them on over her pants. I think it will be so much fun! Then on Friday it's their Halloween party and I volunteered to help, I'm excited to be able to be there for that. They also have a parade at 10 that morning, how fun! Then of course Halloween is on Saturday, and it will be fun to take the girls around to get some treats (parents are allowed to share right?) I'm way excited to see them all dressed up. Hailey and Katie are going to be ghosts and Zoe will be the Lion, the same one that the other two girls have been. My sweet mom sewed Hailey and Katie's costumes, she was here until 3:40 the other morning sewing, and then she had to come back the next day to finish. I love that woman!! Wow, this post is really long, if you made it to the end of this post you're a real trooper! I'm sure I'll have more later, and hopefully I'll be able to post pictures soon! Until next time, talk to you later!!